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Fitspo Binge-Purge Cycle - Diet Recovery

Back in 2012, I posted my first ever “fitspo” post on social media – to share with the world my new found *innocent* “passion” for health and fitness..

*Oh what I wish I would’ve known that I do now, back then*..

I wish I would’ve known about all the detrimental side effects I was about to experience as...

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There’s more to the story than what we see in the photos… (ED/Diet Recovery)

Let's take a look behind the fake smiles and supposedly "healthy, fit and ideal body" as well as having to go through rebound weight gain after restriction, dieting and malnourishment... and all other phases of my journey.. to what it is now.

There’s a lot of deception within photos on the internet. Photos and appearance do...

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Eating Disorder Recovery Sucks… But It’s So Worth It

I had the privilege to speak with Robyn Baker on her podcast “Recovery Sucks But It’s So Worth It!”

 

In this podcast we discuss…

• What physically sucked about her eating disorder recovery? (i.e. Edema, accepting weight gain, digestive distress, etc)

• The truth about “yo-yo recovery”

•...

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EXERCISE AND WEIGHT GAIN IN ED RECOVERY Q&A W/ TABITHA FARRAR

In this video with Tabitha, we talk about:

  • Her story and what helped her to finally commit and fully recover after being in “pseudo-recovery” and in denial for years
  • How to tolerate/accept weight gain and a bigger body shape with curves
  • Exercise in recovery… When you are just ‘sport lover’ from the childhood and...

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Thank God I Survived the Eating Disorder… & This is How.. (ED Recovery)

Let me share something personal with you….

 

  • I was bedridden, bloated, in pain, my whole body ached, brain fog, fatigued, zilch energy, anxious, fearful, unable to digest any foods anymore, had lost my menstrual cycle, was dizzy and faint, lost my sex drive, lost many relationships, lost my passion for life, isolated, my bones felt...
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CALORIC DEFICIT MYTH - HOW I EAT NOW & FEEL HEALTHIER THAN EVER POST ED/DIET RECOVERY

 

 In this short video I talk about:

 

 The reality of what a Caloric Deficit means,

 How I eat now post-recovery and feel healthier than ever,

 Comparing your recovery to “recovered” influencers and how it can sabotage your journey,

 Why some “recovered” influencer’s can...

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How the Heck to Heal From Laxative/Enema Abuse in ED / Diet Recovery??

As requested by a couple of you for some time now, I finally put together a video about healing your bowels after laxative/enema abuse, on youtube for you! Check it out by clicking Here!

Dealing with digestive troubles, depending on daily enemas, abusing all kinds of laxative supplements – whether “all natural”...

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“I Can’t Stop Eating…” (Eating Disorder Recovery)

… okay but in all seriousness.. are you restricting yourself from pizza, and then when you do “allow” yourself to eat pizza – do you binge, feel guilty, and then restrict again in an attempt to “gain control?”

Would you like to be able to eat a slice of pizza or two without anxiety, feel satisfied and be...

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The Dark Side to Fitspo, Bodybuilding and Bikini Competing… Why Diet Recovery is the Only Way Out.

Let me tell you how I really felt behind the fake smile on this day…

 

I felt deprived, i was having heart palpitations, I felt physically/mentally/emotionally drained, I could only think about my cheat meal-post competition binge after the show, i was dehydrated not being able to drink too many fluids and using diuretics, I was...

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Edema, Water Retention and Bloating In ED / Diet Recovery

EDEMA in Recovery.. swollen face in recovery, swollen tight ankles and knees, swollen bloated belly, all forms of edema and water retention in recovery is what I want to talk about today.

Photo on the left is me super swollen, puffy and miserable within recovery. I weighed the same, if not even a bit more on the right, but it was because of all...

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